This world changes by the words spoken. But it also changes by the words unspoken.
Hear me. Pay attention to what I say and don’t say. If you did then you would have known.
You would have known that I had no bad intentions of hurting you simply because I am not capable of doing so. You would have known that I wasn’t looking for somebody else other than you. You would have known that the strongest version of my self is the version you are in it. You would have known that I think about you in the littlest details, not looking for big things. You would have known then that I appreciated you more than you could appreciate me.
I wish you knew of the things I wanted to say. I wish you knew of the things I did for you. I wish I knew what to say and not to say. I wish you knew what to say and what not to say.
But some things are to be left inside the shelf. Maybe some words are not meant to be said at some particular time. Maybe some words are not meant to be heard or spoken at all. Who would have known anyway?
Since I don’t have the world on my side, let me tell you these things I’ve been meaning to tell you for the longest time:
Say what you think about. Tell a person that you hate him, at least he would know about it and not suffer your silence. My greatest regret in life was not telling my dad how much I have loved him. He died without knowing that I do.
When you find a pensive person who looks like he is carrying the burden of the world over his shoulders, give him a warm smile. At least he would know you recognize his struggles.
Don’t feel bad of things you cannot have. Just remember that somebody is happy to have you. Although I am not that somebody, never think that I don’t think about you.
Don’t smile to a person if you don’t mean it. A smile speaks ten-folds than a thousand words. You may give a false impression.
I have kept everything that you had given or shared with me: those post-its, those scribbles at the back of my paper, etc. They are small parts of you but they are huge for me.
Don’t whisper when you talk. It irritates a lot of people.
Maybe we didn’t spend a long time together but what’s time anyway but a small wrinkle in space? I am not expecting for more time with you but two hours a day won’t hurt.
If you had told me to stay, I would have. You have no idea of the amount of joy it would cause on me.
I find you complicated, somebody hard to understand. But I think I am also like that.
Seriously I feel small whenever you are around. You give me the feeling that I am repressed, narrow person. But trust me, I am not.
I think you will never like my background. But I think you will enjoy my childhood.
Why I am putting so much of myself on you, I don’t know why. It is hard to explain.
How would you ever trust or believe me? That’s an open ended question.
You don’t think of me seriously don’t you? I’d like to know why.
I would also like to know who are the lucky people you cry for.
Am I good on you? That’s because you make me feel bad most of the time. How lopsided this world is!
You are important to me. I can quit smoking if you just tell me so.
I’m not looking for somebody who will love me but just someone who will witness how I do with life.
Try to be extra nice to me. It shows.
Unleash you revenge. Now.
These and more.
Maybe I am mistaken. Maybe you are mistaken. But either way I don’t think we deserve the unspoken.
This world changes by the words spoken. But it also changes by the words unspoken.
