To this day, September 23, it has been five years since my father’s death. Whew! Time is faster than I thought it was. It felt like it was just some Sundays ago when I had to be brave at the face of my father’s fight on his death bed. But it doesn’t disturb me now when I try to remember how I quivered during those sleeplessness nights at the wake because during that time, the sheer size of what just happened (one father’s death, that is) felt all so surreal that I thought I was moving in some ghastly, lonely piece of literature. Yep, I could say I’m done with those sick, sad episodes now. But not the pensive remembrance of my father.
What objects make you remember your father, whether alive or not?
I made a list of those things which remind me of my father. Some of these can still make me cry.
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This is what you get from eating a full-pack meal at 4 AM: a bad stomach, and a natural high that seemed so unwavering that it sucks the socket of your eyes knowing that sleep is a distant need at the moment, and you’re sleepy but there are still four sticks left for you to smoke.
I’m smoking the 2nd stick as I type this and only five minutes tick more and it’s five. But what the heck, I’ve had far many sleepless days before, but I fared and even once wrote a 40-pages thesis with one eye closed.
I would love love love to “sport my brand new fashion of waking up with pants off at 4:00 in the afternoon.” That’s the lifestyle I’ve been used to 6 months back and even a strong chilled beer feels nowhere near it. I love that groggy feeling just before sunset and it’s not derived from any designer drugs than that feeling of waking up in the morning and feeling groggy yet the same.
And shame, it started raining outside even before I could kick off this sentence. I think it’s sleep calling me. Anyway, I did a meme for the heck of it. This is my first and god, how I hate it on Friendster. But whatever.
* A - Age you first believed in love? - I was 6 then. During prep school. Even before I was circumcised.
* B - Band listening to right now? – Not a band but Rufus Wainwright, and he’s not gay, goddamit!
* C - Dream Car? – A yellow Porsche running along the foothills of Monaco
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